The Universe understands...

I've had an incredible amount of outside influence on my life for about 20 years.  It's a long story, I can't really go into it, just some stupid shit that happened because there are a lot of douchebags in this world.  About three weeks ago, thinking hard about all of this crazy stuff, I wrote this piece.

The Universe understands...

Sometimes the plans and actions of others come down on you so hard, that the very best you can do is simply survive.  It takes a super human effort just to keep going.

Sometimes, the obstacles are so big, and you're so outnumbered that survival IS the win.  No matter how hard you try, no matter what level of effort you put in, the very best result is to simply survive.  There are circumstances where nothing more is possible.  In those circumstances you do your very best just to survive.

The cruel trick of fate is that once you've made it through hell, once you've survived the unsurvivable, there will be people, very average people often, who can't understand why you're in such sorry shape.  And there's no way to explain to them just how tough your path has been, just how lucky you are to still be alive at all.

Then you have to march past all those people, and slowly rebuild, and slowly accumulate the things needed for a simple, average life.  And you can never tell them, all of them, just what you've been through, and how hard it was, and how many times you just wanted to lie down and give up.  But you didn't give up.  You hung in there and wrestled the forces of evil into submission.

You just have to march on, moment by moment, step by step, and keep rebuilding, from the streets, back up.

They'll never know.  They'd never understand anyway.  But you know what you've been through.  You know...  and the Universe knows.  And once in a great while, when no one's looking, the Universe will give you a wink.  And it will reach down and give you a hand up, a little ways, as far as is needed.  The Universe has struggled, it has been there, too.  Even if no one understands, the Universe does.